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2020 - BEFORE

by Dakota Loesch

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1.
HEMATODIPSIA 03:25
schadenfreude’s when they get-off on your pain happenstance is how all good luck gets explained louiston is not a harbor town in maine but hematodipsia is folx who get-off on blood and anyone who’s kissed ya knows you get-off on blood mishegas is lots of shit thrown in your way nouveau riche is why the coke is always great waco, texas was a harbor town in maine and hematodipsia is folx who get-off on blood anyone who’s kissed ya knows you get-off on blood and renfield’s disease is, uh when you drink your own blood and yeah, you know me, like, uh i’d like to drink your own blood hematodipsia is when you and blood fall in love so give me a kiss, my love, and you can suck all my blood so hartford, virginia? it ain’t in virginia so heartbreak might kill ya, so might mild dyspepsia mesopotamia means, “don’t be afraid, my love!” mesopotamia means, “don’t let me stay, my love!” mesopotamia? that’s a harbor town in maine, my love and hematodipsia? hematodipsia
2.
THE FORD 03:53
this isn’t what it looks like but they put it on the books, right? and they pawned it off like know-how so the neighbors probably know now we should probably get the coke out of the window you just broke out you got anything to smoke this blow out of? and you say, “yeah...” a ford f-150, a ford f-150 a ford f-150, a ford f-150 this isn’t revelations there ain’t that many angels but you know the place is odd cuz all the lighting? it looks off and you see the face of god the real face of fucking god and apparently the face of fucking god? it looks just like a ford f-150, a ford f-150 a ford f-150, a ford f-150 this isn’t 2018 it’s 4868 and orion owns the planet and the humans make a last stand and nibiru shows back up and obliterates our whole sun as the launch codes? they finally come in from all the highers-up they read: ford f-150, ford f-150 ford f-150, ford f-150 this isn’t what dogs dream of (they can’t even keep their feet up) this isn’t how trees drink blood (i don’t think trees even drink blood) this isn’t sky above you (this isn’t my “i love you”) this ain’t, “the lord is with me!” (this ain’t a ford-150) this ain’t a ford-150… this is a ford f-150, a ford f-150
3.
you had a dream where you stole all these eggs and these eggs were the flesh of your family and friends and that flesh made you cry cuz the flesh wasn’t flesh and now you are convinced of your impending death all because of some dream of some eggs in some bed (okay…) so put your crazy fuckin’ hand in mine hell, put a lemon shark there too save all this dumb talk for a band of mine a band of mine that i can’t start with you could we knock off the drums for like five seconds, man? can you cut out that flanger? can we break-up the band? all i know is you’re holding a large frying pan and in your other hand is a fake plastic hand so put your silly fake-ass hand in mine let’s blow a hole in our canoe let’s stand in line, let’s watch a band of mine a band of mine that i can’t start with you a band of mine that i can’t start with you it’s the funniest form of auto-vampirism: all the blood you got out was the blood you put in it now you’re sucking on a nuke just to skip to the end well, fuck it! scorched earth, baby! fireworks time! let’s drop the bomb on xanadu what happens when nobody pantomimes? well, you get a band of mine that i can’t start with you you get a band of mine that you ain’t starting too
4.
fuckin’ eddie was running his mouth off and shit when they took the rebar to his teeth took his cash, both his shoes, took like three smokes a-piece fuckin’ eddie quit smoking last week well i’ve never seen darkness like that, not like that no, i’ve never seen darkness like that i’ve done my share of shit: i smoked dope, i smoked crack but i’ve never seen darkness like that fuckin’ eddie (the angel) was brought to the table where they punctured his hands and his feet they made his parents watch but they didn’t much mind fuckin’ eddie ain’t got family well i’ve never seen darkness like that, not like that no, i have never seen darkness like that I was walking just fine, i’m laid-out on my back i have never seen darkness like that fuckin’ eddie got popped, goddamn julie o.d.’d they shot that bastard tommy in both his fuckin’ knees they killed kelso and korso, and kessler moved to greece fuckin’ eddie? he’d be twenty next week well i’ve never seen darkness like that, not like that i have never seen darkness like that buried my fuckin’ dad, asshole, i skipped the mass still, i’ve never seen darkness like that no, i’ve never seen darkness like that
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you buy the hard candies, put them in a bowl you eat first the candies that you like the most you’re left with pineapple, pineapple, pineapple aw shit, so what the hell was the point of that? listen... don’t solve my mysteries, let a trick be a trick kid, i hung up my top-hat and the rabbit is sick you can steal my magic, you can peek up my sleeve just don’t solve all my mysteries and don’t smoke all my weed you drink first the blood from the cup of the host you drink next the blood from the cut above your nose you dive and dog-paddle, dog-paddle, dog-paddle goddamn, why didn’t you swim here in the first place? now, slow down... don’t solve my mysteries, can’t a trick be a trick? i done retired my suspenders, i got too old for this shit now, if you muster your magic just don’t huck your jokers at me don’t go solving my mysteries and don’t go smoking my weed you spend about three years in love with their ghost that’s one-thousand-plus days, that’s three birthdays both give baby a bottle, a bottle, a bottle well hell, it’s almost like you saw that coming now hold on, smart-ass... don’t solve my mysteries, and forget my luck too i’ll have to hand you your buck back, abracadabra fuck you if you make up some magic, you might make a believer of me just don’t solve all my mysteries, don’t solve my mysteries and for my next trick? i’ll buy the hard candies
6.
GODDAMN DOG 03:18
the goddamn dog barks when it’s raining the goddamn dog barks when it stops the goddamn dog’s always complaining and braying at thunder and postmen and cops the goddamn dog gets mad if you don’t pet his ass sometimes? he’ll just go stare at the fan but the dog doesn’t care i’m in drag, lord no, the dog doesn’t care i’m in drag the goddamn dog pissed off a toddler the goddamn dog pissed on my shoes the goddamn dog broke into our local grocer they put the damn dog on the news the goddamn dog attacked several strangers out back all snip-snap and yip-yap, that was that but that dog doesn’t care i do drag, lord no, the dog doesn’t care i do drag the dog doesn’t care i do drag (cue: judy garland)
7.
had a spouse, got a divorce got deloused in the big courts got strung-out in the lift for days got a house with a ripcord it’s down in the ditch, lord mouth in the gift horse, babe moved my shit out of skidrock was kicked out in my flip-flops i went south in a tin four-gear found some town i could get more just outside of east dickfore mouth in the gift horse, here mouth in the gift horse mouth in the gift horse mouth in the gift horse here we got a mouth in the gift horse you know we’re out in the styx, lord mouth in the gift horse, dear my main source was this kid cop he’d been scoring some bricks hot made a fortune off big-shoot shmooze he got tortured and whipped got reformed into flint rock horse in the gift shop, too i was pouring a big pour i was sore and felt sick (sure) i got coarse and (of course) you knew who was a hearse and a corpse who was a curse and (of course) who was a horse in a horse costume whom was a horse in a horse costume mouth in the gift horse mouth in the gift horse mouth in the gift horse, too mouth in the gift horse still out in the styx, lord we got a horse in a horse costume
8.
well i’m not gonna drink at work anymore not after what happened i’m not gonna drink at work anymore not after what happened not after what happened they don’t let me drink at work anymore i’m not gonna shoot cocaine anymore not after what happened i’m not gonna shoot cocaine anymore not after what happened why was everyone laughing right after what happened? well i don’t have a fucking face anymore not after what happened just blood cells and bad skin capillaries and plasm i don’t have a fucking face anymore not after what happened and i ain’t gotta go to work anymore not after what happened well i ain’t gotta go to work anymore not after what happened i ain’t gotta go to work no more no i ain’t gotta fucking work anymore
9.
you can’t get high in highwood there ain’t no deer in deerfield isn’t nothing north of northbrook unless you’re south of me waukegan’s lost all meaning and i’ve never been to elgin there ain’t nothing outta ottawa unless you’re outta weed and i ain’t going to naperville i think it might kill me (flash forward) 
to when pogroms come to palatine the russians take deer creek (they already did) sure, buffalo grove gets hunted cold to the point that it goes extinct and the skokie swift goes rogue quick and dan ryan’s losing sleep 
you’re fucking with old patio bullshit i’m signing a ten-year lease and i won’t go to lisle, no unless you’re making me (little inside tip) there ain’t a glen in glenview no rory’s in aurora 
there ain’t no bars in lombard not unless you know a guy and, no, you can’t park in highland park unless you married a hustler 
and the same thing goes for highwood if you’re trying to get high (listen) 
i can get down on quaaludes i can get down on speed 
i can get down on ketamine: right-the-fuck-down on my knees i can get down on vicodin i can get down on benzedrine coricidin, coricidin, coricidin: cleft for me but i can’t get down on my hometown I think i’ve built a tolerance (final lesson) 
 the muppets take manhattan steve dahl blows up comiskey tom skilling takes a smoke break as svengoolie takes the lead mein zuhause ist der strand ma maison est la plage 
mi casa es la playa the beach is mine, goddamn and i ain’t going to highland park ‘cept to bury my old man
10.
we seen you walk around spitting a switchblade out so quick it made our day, so did the razor blade razor blade babe, razor blade babe mouth razor blade babe, razor blade babe mouth they fixed a welterweight, they kissed the neighbor’s gate they grin and we all know it, their razor blade is showing razor blade babe, razor blade babe mouth they better cut it out with their razor blade, razor blade babe mouth razor blade babe, razor blade babe mouth they better cut it out with their razor blade, razor blade babe mouth razor blade babe, razor blade babe mouth pissed-off at paper plates, wristwatch, and gatorades they tried to say something: split lip and veins running ripped-off a paper crane at land-between-the-lakes they got a raise coming, that’s why there face’s bloody we want our cuts to match, guidelines across our back we wanna pay for pain, we want your razor blade razor blade boy, razor blade girl’s mouth razor blade, kid, razor blade folx mouth razor blade, babe, razor blade babe mouth cut me all up-and-down razor blade babe, razor blade babe mouth razor blade babe, razor blade babe’s mouth
11.
are there any knuckleballers left? the objects in your past view mirror may be smaller than you expect are there any knuckleballers left? in elk grove today for a drug test i studied for it all night i think that i might do alright if there’s any knuckleballers left have you met my dear grand-daughter yet? cancer ain’t got shit on me no honey, i ain’t afraid of death cuz i met my dear grand-daughter, yes are there any knuckleballers left? i’ll pop one out to right field and darryl’s there & god is real cuz there’s many knuckleballers left there’s so many knuckleballers left
12.
HAVE A DOG 04:34
when i one day have a dog when i one day have a dog i will have a good excuse for all these collars that i bought when i one day have a dog when i one day have a dog and a job, and an apartment and somebody that i love more than me when i’m running from the dog when i’m running from the dog and the bastard’s gaining on me and i have house-slippers on when i’m bleeding from the dog when i’m bleeding from the dog and my mouth and nose and kneecaps and all over all the leaves in this here tree when i come back as a dog when i come back as a dog i will drink out of a puddle no one will yell at me at all when i come back as a dog when i come back as a dog or a moth, or a scent-memory or an old pair of gym socks on my dead feet when i finally get a dog when i finally get a dog i will finally pay my taxes i’ll also believe in god... when i finally have a dog when i finally have a dog or a massive aneurysm, or a strange near-death experience, or a case of sudden blindness, or i’m locked in an asylum, or i’m blackmailed and extorted, or i’m detained and i’m tortured, or i have my nervous breakdown, or i fall in love with someone who wants to one day have a dog? we will one day have a dog we will one day have a dog but hey, let’s try a goldfish first
13.
she's a hard luck woman... hey, that's me!

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